This week

This was an interesting week to say the least. I worked very hard Mon. and Tues and then was home on Wed. I thought it would be a good day, get up spend a few hours with the kids and then send the girls off and relax. I must have been crazy, it couldnt have been further away from the truth. Wed. turned into a big giant fiasco. First I had a big communication mishap with dingle dorf, and then when things finally calmed down from that I spent the rest of the day on the computer. Thurs. I spent the day trying to be flexible at work, and repeated that again Fri. I have been trying to work on not taking ownership of everything and everyone. It is something I really struggle with because I try to solve everything and somethings just shouldnt be solved. I have been very frustrated at work, our numbers are down and we are just not getting the volumns that we anticipated. That interprets out to not getting the hours that I need. It has really created a tremendous amount of stress. I think that balances out again to the fact Linna is being taught an old lesson AGAIN......... I must really have a thick skull. I need to rely on my heavenly father because Fri. I pulled all my xmas money out to pay bills. I was heart broken because I dont know if I will be able to replace it and I cant just skimp on xmas. Anyway, I put the rest in his hands and sure enough, sat. morning I had the opportunity to work. I truly was a blessing. I was on my last straw and I didnt know how else it was going to turn out. What a marvelous thing.
Stephen has been a absolute saving grace. He is always so good to try to help. He really sucked up this weekend. I know he was hoping to get in a lot of friend time and that totally didn't happen. He had such a great attitude about it. He was very good to help out every day and was very positive about being alone, even when I know he didnt want to be. I sure appreciate his goodness.
I havent seen the girls since Wed. morning. I hope they had a good time. I have missed them, and always do when they are gone. It will be good to have them back.
I have spent a fair amount of time reflecting on my friends this week. I have so many wonderful people that I consider friends. What a wonderful support system I have. To know that so many truly magnificent people are there to comfort, laugh, cry, love, support, share my burdens, relieve my stress, buy me hamburgers, bring me treats, is a blessing. I appreciate you so much. The ways that you inspire me to be better......... Thankyou so much.

No time.......

WOW,.... It has been a while. It didnt realize that it has been a couple of weeks since I posted an update. A friend got me into facebook.com and I have to admit it has become a little bit of an obsession. It has been fun to reconnect with girls I remember having sleep-overs with when I was a little girl. Girls that I used to hang out with when I was first discovering hanging out. It has been fun to log on and see what my friends are doing at various times of their day.
The kids are out of school this week and hanging out. It will be nice for them to not have any time committments and obligations. It will be nice to have a decrease in stress, although I'm sure I will be stressing all day at work wondering if they are making good decisions. I hope no one will dye this week.
We spent tonight watching a great movie, "October sky". What a great movie. It spurred some great conversation about education, and the human spirit. We talked about perserverance, determination, hard work, and never giving up. I hope that my kids can be passionate about life and achieving their dreams, however individual those may be. I never worried about what my parents wanted me to be. I always felt that was my choice no matter what I chose. It has been fun to dream and to watch myself occomplish those dreams. Sometimes I feel that I cant reach them fast enough, but it is always nice to look back and see progress even though at times it was very slow progress.
I have spent the last week watching the stock market spiral, and watching the marriage proposals around the country, and reflecting about where our wonderful world is going. There is a part of me that wants to fight to maintain those things that I love. I wonder where we will be in 10 years. I am amazed at how fast things can change. It truly is a privledge to be here and have what we have. It is funny how many times I have commented on how life needs to slow down and simplify. This may be the catapult that slows things down and returns us to a simpler life. If it is I hope we will appreciate all that we have and feel how blessed we are. I wonder if my children can appreciate how blessed they have been, and how hard I work to make things good for them. I think that sometimes they dont realize all that goes in to our life.
A good friend told me about a friend that she has that his wife just left for another man, someone she met on the internet. I also had another friend the same night frustrated because her husband doesnt quite get the importance of the temple and family committment. I am wondering why people dont get the important things in life, the things that really matter. It seems to me that the gospel, and our Savior are the only things consistent anymore. I am frustrated with the way men treat women. Where is the respect, admiration, and adoration that we have seen in our parents? I know the same could be said for the men that go out and work hard every day for their families while their wives stay home and loaf. I guess that I have a new respect for those that have it figured out and treat each other like true treasures. Isnt that what it is really about? I guess as I reflect about time, that is really what needs to be considered, time............ We have so little, we need to treat it as a treasured gift. I think Tricia taught me this the best. Thankyou dear sister. I reflect on you so much of the time. How you truly got it. How you treated your family, put your priorities where they should be, lived your life in accordance with what you believed, and never,never settled. Thankyou so much for your wonderful example.
Ok, maybe I shouldnt go so long....... I may reflect to much. Thankyou to those that can truly appreciate my passion, my exuberance for life, and my challenge to excell. I know it drives me crazy, I would assume it does that for others. To those others, I apologize and say thankyou for loving me anyway.